love letters from sempai || a daily log and MOTD

sempai

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The store is wiped clean and wiped out. Foot traffic was so slow, and it wasn't just our store. Everyone in the plaza seemed to be at a standstill yesterday. I'm going to the local asian market to grab my groceries later, since the rampant racism is deeply affecting the local Korean community. Can't believe people are acting like this is some kind of apocalypse.
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I deeply, truly, passionately wish to stay in bed today. L got stuck with a twelve hour shift since other people in his department can't be trusted for shit. I miss him. I did get a lot of shit done at home though, even though I completely ruined that one recipe lol. Later a friend is going to take us to their favorite "witch shop" L says. Don't really know what that means. It's probably kitschy, but I'm looking forward to it. My social circle is butthole zero.

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"I carry more than your sin. My dreams are bigger than me."
 

sempai

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20200317

L's eye surgery has been scheduled for May. They're going to try a muscle tightening surgery this time, and if it still doesn't help they're going to remove it. The doctor was absolutely furious that his glasses were made with the wrong prescription, and went out of their way to go fight his insurance to get him another pair that won't destroy his eye. He's really hoping this muscle surgery works, because he's been told his working eye may feel "sympathy pains" and go blind after. Something tells me this is going to be the case.

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The KKB concert is probably going to get cancelled again. I missed the first one because the lead singer got a nasty flu, poor thing. I almost expect her to try and brave it despite the risk of getting herself sick again. She's such a sweet person but I'd hate for her to go through all that.

Plus the venue is considering a temporary closure, so why bother.

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sempai

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Came across something a few minutes ago that sparked my anxiety so bad it damn near triggered an attack. I've been so good the last few months, only minor things, removing myself from situations that trigger it, being able to calm myself down. I've been good. But hearing that thing slammed me back into the headspace and I'm alone and having trouble coming down.

I haven't been paying attention to virus news for this reason. I can't risk ruining my balance or I'll freak out like everyone else. And I don't have medication or therapy to control it, just my own self.
 

sempai

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Haven't been sleeping well the last few nights. Barely two last night, and four the night before. My eyes won't stay closed. Body always aching. Chronic pain is getting worse since I can't rest, and I can't rest because I ache. My new health insurance should be in effect here shortly if it's not already, but there's no way I'm going to a doctor right now. Maybe I can try after everything calms down... how ever long that takes.

We received a recall notice for surgical masks; if we ever get any in stock we need to remove it from the shelves and send it to a local medical facility that's out of stock. I'm thankful we're able to give it to those that need it rather than the people trying to hoard things.


I just want to go home. I want my bed. I want to sleep.
 
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