RisaXSeph's Status Journal... Thing

risaxseph

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Hello,

This exists again... For yummy archival sake the old thread is going to be copied here now.... followed by comments from today... Oh boy... Random wall of text... I bet you were looking forward to that!!!


Hi there,

So this will be my sort of… rambling thread I guess… I mean you could call it a journal but with how much (or little) I would use it I guess its just a bunch of nonsense. I was told by some mental health folks that apparently writing down the crazy shit that goes on in your life helps… Heh…

6/6/17
So today my laptop was repaired but it was fixed too late for me to go pick it up so along with my mass of assignments to finish tomorrow I should go pick it up (Just what I wanted to do; go 20 miles that way > to the edge of nowhere!). On top of this I basically stopped playing video games because I honestly have no motivation at all but yet somehow, I manage to write… It is pretty much the only thing I do anymore… I have no idea why; maybe I just want to live someone else’s life… Even in this I sound super depressive… I need to somehow get a better outlook on life… That will be the day won’t it. At least I get to go spend time with one of my buddies this weekend and there is only two days of exams left… and I get my family’s house to myself for a week… I don’t really like being alone anymore though… Lived alone for three years; not all it is cracked up to be… At least from my observations. Maybe I should do these types of things more often… Gotta love Word’s autocorrect feature… This word is not the right word form of this other word… Okay… Good for you computer… At least I find myself enjoying music… and the few RPs I am doing… I wish more people replied and were interested in my stuff but whatever… Can’t please everyone… I should throw some of my poems in here… Super depressive stuff but… Every little bit helps or so I was told.

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Well I figured I would post here again…

I seem to have had less of a problem doing what I needed to do this week than I thought I would. I was told by my counselor that I need to be less of a negative person; I even notice in the Discord for this community I am quite bitchy and negative… I really need to quit with that. Though this weekend has started out pretty well; my family asked me to house-sit for them and so I did that while finishing my school work for the term. Being nearly 30 and only just getting to where I am in college sometimes I sell myself short but for someone who is legally blind I have been told I need to stop comparing myself to people with full sight and so forth as most of them never even get here much less consider grad school. I have been told I am an accomplished person and that I need to start believing in that. Maybe; maybe not… I don’t really know.

On another good note though I went and saw a friend for the first time in six months; that is a pretty big thing and I had fun… We continued our D&D campaign… The other person I am playing with knocked a Minotaur off of a cliff and then he got killed by a magical tiger… All the enemies ran away but the tiger still managed to knock my character unconscious (poor Yuka) though that’s to diplomacy prior to this battle villagers saved me and revived the other party member. I guess it was good that I talked to the people in that village otherwise game over would have been a thing… All in all though it was good… Then I got back to the house I am house sitting and tomorrow I go to celebrate my cousin’s graduation (!!!) that should be fun!

If anyone actually reads this stuff thanks



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Depending on people's reactions to this post or if anyone even bothers to respond to me via private message or otherwise I might just stop posting here entirely. To me actions speak much louder than words and I have made it clear to people that I come here to write and then I post on a daily basis but yet it is a constant fight with people to even get them to attempt to post with me. Time is one thing that someone cannot get back and so when I put my time into something I expect the equal in return... I feel like I'm not getting that. As I have said in the past and as I even say in my threads I get it that people have lives but at least communicate your situation at least give me the honor of having your time. If you do not have the intention in doing so this will not work out. I can hear to enjoy my time and have fun not sit around waiting for extremely long amount of time to hope that someone will initiate some kind of response to me. The fact that I'm even having to post this shows that there is a lack of effort on people's part. If I don't get a response from anyone then I will know that my initial thought on this was correct. So if people actually want to continue to do things with me then I recommend that they reach out.

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I am starting a new job Monday. I also have just been notified that my grandfather is in the ICU. As a result of both of these things my responses will be limited however as it is a policy of mine I am still going to attempt to login once per day and get at least three posts in. I will start this today so when I get up I will reply to everyone that's waiting for me. I'm sorry for the delay's and I am hoping things get better over time. I should get used to my new work schedule pretty fast so I should be around more even though it seems like some of my partners disappeared.

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My work schedule changed and I have ran in to some other unintended problems with the new job, moving and the like. I am still working to get on here at least once a day to reply if not once every 48 hours. If you need me just shoot me a PM; same goes if you want to write with me. Just check out my request threads. If you need some help from me I will still try to help you; just PM me. I am in here for the long haul since my issues with that move were addressed so just message me if you want to... Only time i won't respond is at work.

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I am moving jobs again but this is a good thing as the previous one did not work as intended and the four hour travel time was unreasonable. With that said I am back around, looking to write and will work to update all of my threads, plots and the like. I am actually also going to bring some of my other girls over... More characters for people to use is always a good thing.


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I updated all my threads and classes have started again but I still have plenty of time to write as I am just working for an event security company on the side so I am open to new partners and more writing. I am happy my life is stable again.

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I said that my life was stable again and then a literal shit storm fell up on the fan and scattered the crap literally everywhere. So another death happened in the family and then I got called into work every day for a week. I then had to spend a couple days catching up on coursework which I still need to finish and so today I have finally just started to get things back to normal and gotten motivated enough to start writing again. I'm hoping after Tuesday I will be back into the normal swing of things and trying to get back to people every day or two. If you're interested in writing with me or have written with me in the past please feel free to reach out as I'm looking for dedicated people who will be willing to write with me through the long-haul.


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Term is nearly over, work has slowed down and exams are basically clear. Up for writing more and up for new partners. Feel free to reach out to me on Discord at risaxseph#1977 or via PM here.

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I have a month off coming up and I’m hoping that I will be able to find more people on this site. This is a difficult time of year for me then as last year I ended up in hospital. It’s a long story but I ended up in a mental health day facility for a little over a month. With all that’s happened over the past few months I’m at least glad that I feel like I’m in a better place than I was but I still feel I need to distract myself in some manner so that I can get through this month at the very least.

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Got a bunch going on right now and so I will be around tomorrow afternoon or Sunday. After that though I have the holiday break.


risaxseph:
After today I start having a month off. I have also finally gotten everything I want for right now. I still have two people I am talking with via PMs but aside from those two and the people I am already writing with I am no longer looking for more partners at this time. Thanks for everyone for waiting for me to get back to you and for those people who have been writing with me longer term as I wanted from partners. If anything happens to stop me from writing or I need a break I will post here.

risaxseph:
I've had a large influx of requests come in; with that said I am once again no longer looking. Thanks for the people who have gotten with me and to my current partners please reply guys so we can move forward. Thank you. Glad life has fallen into place for me and my writing is falling in line as well. Liking some of the current ideas I have going and hope we can write for awhile; thanks to the two of you who are helping me continue my original stories from years ago; it makes me feel like my writing has accomplished something over the years.

risaxseph:
Happy christmas and holidays to everyone. I am currently in the middle of my winter break and will be until the 8th of January. I have a couple things I am doing but other then that I am super free... Please if you write with me try to reply and I'll get to it.

risaxseph:
So I kind of dropped off for a few days but I’m back now even though I think this term my replies will be a little more delayed than I like I still should be around to write. Basically I’m working on my senior project this term and doing some grant writing so that book and to keep me busy but I will be free on Mondays and Fridays which I should have a lot of time to focus on writing because that’s literally all I’m doing this term. If any of my previous partners are interested please feel free to just send me a message. I tried to reach out to all of you if there was any question about our continuing but there were a couple of you who I already knew would be willing to continue to ride and so I didn’t reach out. If you didn’t get a message and are still writing with me and we will be all good. If you still have any concerns just reach out to me and as always keep the lines of communication open. I hope the new year is going well for you guys and I do hope that things continue to go well.


On a secondary note I might disappear again for a couple days but I will be back that’s why I’m posting this; basically I was involved in a car accident on Tuesday and nearly was hit by a car flying across the college campus though thankfully someone pulled me out of the way and everybody else involved in the accident was OK. I don’t know if i’ll be called as a witness but here’s for hoping that doesn’t happen. If that does and I have to disappear I will let people know though since no one was injured I don’t really suspect that it will take very long if it does happen.

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Just a note to anyone that I have posted with previously. If we disappeared and stop talking for a while which led to me moving your post to my “closed” list that does not mean that I’m done with your game it just means I have assumed you don’t want to write it anymore. If you want to continue just feel free to reach out to me and the same goes for anyone who I have reached out to you via p.m. If you want to continue our game just let me know. I’m happy to write and even though my post frequency is every few days now I still would be happy to write with you.

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Still have a couple of writing things to do with other groups which I will complete tomorrow but outside of that I should be back to posting at least daily. I will be reaching out to all of my past partners to see if they still want to participate in our active RPs but outside of that I will likely be searching for more writing partners soon. Those who have currently active RPs and are posting will have nothing to worry about though as I will happily write with you guys.

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I’ve had a bunch of people not respond to my messages that I have sent. Something to keep in mind with me is that people need to at least respond because it’s a pet peeve of mine when people just ignore your messages. You should at least give me the courtesy of saying “I’m no longer interested“ because just ignoring someone leaves them wondering if they did something to anger you, if you hated a response or are no longer interested or available to write. As I have always said to keep the lines of communication open; it’s not that unreasonable request.

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Just a bit of what’s going on with me for people who I write with. Basically I’m one of those people that I need a certain number of things to write to really be motivated to write and so far a bunch of my partners keep quitting or disappearing so as a result I dropped below the threshold of posts I would reasonably like to make. That along with exams and papers have basically gotten in the way. I am trying to get another person or two so I can actually get back to all of you but that’s basically what’s been going on with me. I do apologize and will be getting back to everyone within the next coming days. Thanks to those of you who have stuck with me over the lake year as there’s only basically a couple of you who have been around that long. I’m hoping we can continue to write together for as long as you would like to continue. To anyone this has annoyed like I said I do apologize and I hope we can continue to write together. As most of you know a lot of these messages come from my mobile so I also apologize for the grammatically broken stuff.

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So I’m still in need of one more active RP to even try writing stuff... if I don’t get one in a few days I might just drop my current RPs. I want to write but waiting twenty years for people to come back or to find partners who want to write is just becoming less and less worth it. Hopefully someone starts something.

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Hey everyone,

I just wanted to give a little bit of an update. I’ve had a super busy turn but I’m hoping that things will slow down in the coming weeks. I still have a couple things to do for classes but I am going to try to get responses in once a week just know that I’m not disappearing. If you need to get in touch with me please just send me a PM or message me on Discord also I’m pretty active on both of those. Hopefully this won’t last lone... also if you have Discord message me so I can friend you @ risaxseph#1977

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Finals are over and my life is falling back in order. I have decreased the amount I post but also the quality has gone down as of late and I wanted to apologize for that. Over the next few days if I get replies I am going to try to focus on better; longer replies. I also want to try to get back to posting every few days; or at least checking on this site once a day. If anyone wants to chat just PM me or message me on discord at risaxseph #1977.

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Due to summer term starting, life being busy and adjusting to a new desk my responses are now shorter than ever and I only reply once a week. I would still like to continue writing but know that probably the best way to write with me is to likely move our stories to discord. I can much more easily focus on an instant response till need shorter replies like something in a VN than writing out 300 - 400 words per reply. I am trying to get my want of writing that length back again though as it really does get hard to move a story along well enough without that. Sorry in advance to all my partners. Hopefully you will all still want to write with me.


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Good morning,

I have been in a really odd place with my writing as of late and for tht I am sorry... I have been unreliable and for that I am sorry... At this point most of my writing has moved to Discord and basically I prefer to keep my stuff here though but my posts are shorter due to my becoming more use to writing there. I hope that does not cause any problems for anyone. If it does I am sorry... Just fair warning though In like two weeks I go back to class for my final term in college full time. I might not be able to post but I want to try to at least get something out once a week... That has always been my goal and yet I do not seem to meet it as much as I like. I hope those that care will forgive me; though it seems like most of you have fallen into a similar situation.


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There we go... We are now to the current time. I took out a bunch of random whining and meaningless posts on my end as well as any posts from other people; since that is their content I have not moved it over. I have some math to get caught up on but after that I hope to be able to start writing again. As I mentioned in my intro I will be waiting until the other site transfers to really start posting here if it is an old RP. if we are starting something new then I will start it here but until... Like I think ten days from now I won't update the current threads I have with people here... We will need to do them over on HE; once they are transferred then this will no longer be relevant.
 

risaxseph

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Ugh...

Waiting for things and people to transfer and all my other friends online do nothing and hardly even talk to me unless they need technical support. Meaning I basically sit around most of the time doing nothing unless its something for university... I feel worthless and unnecessary with how little I have to do and how often I get responses... I don't really know what to do about that as when I propose ideas people either are not interested or just seem to half-ass... I really just don't know...
 

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I would offer to RP with ya, as you seem interesting, seen your thread a few times, but we both play submissive females xD

That aside, if you're worried about not having enough to do, why not pick up a solo hobby? Like gaming, Writing, drawing, etc. I write in my spare time, as does ImmortalWriter obviously, and we both also play games and such. Helps fill the time when you have nothing to do. ^.^
 

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I am sorry to hear that,
I really hope you will find a great partner soonand all your former partners will get transferred ASAP :)

Cheer up!
 

risaxseph

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I would offer to RP with ya, as you seem interesting, seen your thread a few times, but we both play submissive females xD

That aside, if you're worried about not having enough to do, why not pick up a solo hobby? Like gaming, Writing, drawing, etc. I write in my spare time, as does ImmortalWriter obviously, and we both also play games and such. Helps fill the time when you have nothing to do. ^.^
I mean some of my girls can try being less sub; I have attempted to lead some of my friends. I just prefer playing sub. As for hobbies; I enjoy taking pictures, writing and studying random topics but the problem with all that for me is I have no one to show my work to and so my projects die and or things get dropped. What games do you guys play; I can never fmind anyone who plays what I play.
I am sorry to hear that,
I really hope you will find a great partner soonand all your former partners will get transferred ASAP :)

Cheer up!
Thank you. I am working on that; I hope they all move over soon too.
 

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If you write stories why not share them online? There's a lot of websites for that. Fictionpress, Wattpad, Booksie, Quotev. And I believe sites like instagram are good for sharing pictures.

Writer and I have been playing overwatch for the most part the last few months. We've poked at Last year a bit, played F13 for a while. Had a few months where we played Ark. We went through a lot of Divinity 2 but stopped because the friend we were playing with lost his PC. We play a wide variety really, just not the heavy FPS ones like COD, counterstike, battle royal stuff, and all. We usually play more casually. (I'm only gold ranked in OW and she's silver. We mostly play QP and arcade though.)
 

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If you write stories why not share them online? There's a lot of websites for that. Fictionpress, Wattpad, Booksie, Quotev. And I believe sites like instagram are good for sharing pictures.

Writer and I have been playing overwatch for the most part the last few months. We've poked at Last year a bit, played F13 for a while. Had a few months where we played Ark. We went through a lot of Divinity 2 but stopped because the friend we were playing with lost his PC. We play a wide variety really, just not the heavy FPS ones like COD, counterstike, battle royal stuff, and all. We usually play more casually. (I'm only gold ranked in OW and she's silver. We mostly play QP and arcade though.)
I play some occasional CS:GO, Minecraft and SAO:Fatal Bullet. My current games are Mabinogi, PSO2 and then I do spend a lot of time writing for my original universe which I plan to turn into a book, VN and other media. Only issue is I have no real drawing talent; even taking an anime drawing class I judge myself too much. the Japanese drawing instructor I have says to not do that but I can't help it and the moment I start I say not good enough and toss it. I also started getting back into watching anime and it has given me ideas to expand my universe into a couple more stories; some I am working on with people here and others I am going to try to write but in order to motivate myself I really need a co-author to help build the idea with and grow it. I write a sci-fi fantasy far future story about a war and the people involved in it. There are also a number of other stories in the universe that don't have anything to do with the main plot but that occur in their own part of the overall story.
 

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I've played Fatal bullet, and we've played many years of minecraft. (Who hasn't xD ). But PSO2? Phantasy Star Online 2? Did that come out in English for PC? I enjoyed the first game ages ago on the xbox (I think?). I played Dragons Dogma online for a while aswell, but lost interest because it wasn't in English I had to use an english patch, so finding people to talk to was hard. Playing an MMORPG without a world of people to interact with is no fun xD

You can't judge your own talent, you can only let it be judged by others because if you try to judge yourself you will always be biased one way or another. I fall into the same trap of feeling like my writing sucks, but I just push to improve it and keep going regardless. Even if it sucks a few people follow it and like it, so I use that as reason to keep writing.

Last anime I watched was Gate, and I thought it was pretty good. Don't watch it too often though, usually too absorbed in everything else.
 

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I've played Fatal bullet, and we've played many years of minecraft. (Who hasn't xD ). But PSO2? Phantasy Star Online 2? Did that come out in English for PC? I enjoyed the first game ages ago on the xbox (I think?). I played Dragons Dogma online for a while aswell, but lost interest because it wasn't in English I had to use an english patch, so finding people to talk to was hard. Playing an MMORPG without a world of people to interact with is no fun xD

You can't judge your own talent, you can only let it be judged by others because if you try to judge yourself you will always be biased one way or another. I fall into the same trap of feeling like my writing sucks, but I just push to improve it and keep going regardless. Even if it sucks a few people follow it and like it, so I use that as reason to keep writing.

Last anime I watched was Gate, and I thought it was pretty good. Don't watch it too often though, usually too absorbed in everything else.
PSO2 is JP still however there is a VERY active english community and rumor is Sega renewed the contract for the game for another 10 years as it is so successful in Japan. Last was heard is any enlgish release is shelved due to business issues on SOA's part, contractual stuff and becuase the english community is already so routed in JP. As for my own talent; I will keep that in mind and attempt to find the right pencils to draw with again and maybe put my work here or somewhere; I would put it on pixiv but I've heard that non-Asians who set up shops there get smashed in for not being ASN. Based on how you write right now with a conversation you seem more adept at grammar than I am and being that I am making a VN and a novel I am technically a professional writer so the same to you on not judging your own skills dear. Gate is good. I just found a random anime today on Funimation's website and started watching it; that is why I am so wanting to write something slice of life as the anime was a slice of life comedy and it was so damned cute. Thanks for this conversation by the way.
 

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Okay so I am working on two ideas and another group idea. With the two other groups I am in and the 8 single RPs I am in I will be holding off on starting anything new until the transition of the site; once that happens I will be able to determine if any of my other HE partners will be continuing to write with me. If you have questions as always shoot me a PM.
 

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With the move over of all the threads from HE it is now time for me to verify with each partner if they want to continue our role plays. If you see this and you are someone I write with please let me know if you are interested in continuing our posting. This even goes for current partners; unless you have made it clear that we are continuing in some other means I will be reaching out to you soon.
 

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I play some occasional CS:GO, Minecraft and SAO:Fatal Bullet. My current games are Mabinogi, PSO2 and then I do spend a lot of time writing for my original universe which I plan to turn into a book, VN and other media. Only issue is I have no real drawing talent; even taking an anime drawing...
MAB-IN-O-GI!!! SWORDS! MONSTERS! BIG BOOBED GIRLS!

I don't know why I am always so surprised when I find out people are playing that game XD What is your main's name? I'll add them next time I'm on if you want. I'm Blazewitch in game
 

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Awe crud. I play on Mari....hmm I think I have an extra character card I'm not using :unsure:

Would be a good reason to get back into it again too. Maybe we could do an RP with our characters too XD
 

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Been working a lot the past two weeks. I am getting back to this site finally though and having more time to RP now; I'm also feeling a little more motivation. I plan to get replies out for all those waiting on me and to check on all my current partners within the coming days.
 
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