SweetNecro's House of a Thousand Things Gone Wrong

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So starting out with a good one. For the record, if you are part of my harem or roleplay partners this is where you can get solid news and updates about what I'm up to and why it's taking me a long ass time to respond.

So in today's news. I am suffering from terrible migraines again. I have been lying on my ass for two days straight now without being able to really sleep much except for a few hours last night. I have fallen down quite a few times already and bless my husband for always being around because I would have probably cracked my head open by now. Currently I am dizzy as hell and can barely do a thing. I am trying my best to slowly send out replies to everyone, but there are moments where my mind goes completely blank and I can't even conjure a single sentence. So. I'm sorry. I'm going to be slow responding to some of you. I might end up going to the hospital soon if this keeps up, but we'll see. On the bright side.... I guess.... I am no longer working. Like, no more job until further notice. Guess they're sick of me being ill almost 24/7. Oh well. What can you do?
 
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I am currently very ill. I may be going to the hospital tomorrow if things stay the same. I am trying my best to keep up with responses, but unfortunately it's not working as well as I hoped. Bottom line, I promise I am not ignoring any of you. I will respond to some a bit quicker and more frequently than other. It's not because I prefer one person over another or one to over another. I simply have a hard time focusing so I am responding according to how my brain is working at the time. If I feel like I can give one person a response quicker than another, I will. I am trying to give everyone the best responses I can so some are just coming to me a tad slower than others. I will be catching up tonight though so I ask that you simp6have some patience. Thanks for understanding.
 
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Oh how I live sinking into a depressive episode. This is one of those rock bottom ones too. Oh what great joy.

So here goes.

I'm sorry if this could inconvenience any of you. There is a minor possibility that I may end up disappearing for a few days. It's not too likely, but it may happen. If it does, I am really sorry. I will try to get back to everyone as soon as I can. And I'm sorry to be a burden.

I guess that's it for now.
 
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It's not going away. I'm starting to struggle to keep up with everything and I'm kinda just generally in a bad mood. I have been for weeks now, but it's just getting worse. I don't know what to do about it anymore.

I've had people bail out on me completely. I'm trying to be patient with others, bit my stupid ass has no patience. Who am I kidding. No offense to anyone, but I am Jim an anxious and impatient sort of guy.

I will say, I am grateful to some of y'all who always keep up with me. That's been one of the only things keeping my mind somewhat under control.

But it is what it is. There isn't much I can do about it right now anyway.

The end of the month. That will be my cutoff point I think. Anyone who hasn't been responding to me at all, sorry, but I don't think I'll be willing to wait too much longer. I like things run a specific way and I like to keep track of things so I have to draw the line somewhere. I will handle everything on a case by case basis though. So it isn't like I'm shutting everything down in one go. We shall see what happens.
 
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So life has become a bit of a rough ride. Been trying to keep myself focused and on track, but nothing seems to want to work for me anyway. It feels as if trying is pointless at this point. But maybe that's just how my life is supposed to be? I'm not really sure.

So I've lost my muse again because of all the crap I've been having to deal with as of late. I feel really guilty but I can't help it. So to my current active partners, if I'm not cranking out responses quickly then I apologize but this is why. And the rest.... Well I've already given up on a lot of rps and it disappoints me. Already had a lot closed and gonna go an purge some more I guess. Two things that bother me to no end are when people abandon an rp without telling me and when they disappear without a trace. I get this isn't that big a deal and shit happens, but I feel like it's just a matter of having manners? I don't know. But I'm also tired of fucking chasing people down and constantly being the one to ask "Um... Sorry to bother you, but I'd like to know if you're still interested in continuing this rp?" It's irritating because I usually just get ignored. But whatever. I won't say anything. Not a word. I give people about a month to respond. Maybe a bit more. And if no response then I drop the rp. Simple as that.

If I get tired of an rp honestly I just say so to the person. Whether it bothers them or not at least I am honest. But as for the ones I currently am doing that I am not answering.... I just don't want to give you guys crap responses so I ask that you be just a tad bit patient with me.
 
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This one should be quick here.

Apologizes for my slowness when it comes to responding lately. May tends to be a very busy month for me. Work has me stressed. Been having marital problems. My physical health has been all over the place. My mental health has been a disaster.

On the positive, I've been having new people pop into my life and some old friends resurface. So I will occasionally take time to be with them as I am a person who thrives on social interaction despite my horrendous social anxiety.

So if I'm being a bother to anyone due to my wishy washy posting habits lately, I am sorry. If you'd like to end our rp, just shoot me a message, I understand. If you stick with me, then I'm sorry still, but thank you for understanding and sticking around.

That is all for now.
 
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I am soooooooooooooooooooo terribly sorry everyone. I have been deathly ill as of late and things don't seem to be getting much better.

I have not been able to properly get out of bed and have been nauseated and dizzy as well as have had awful migraines. Now I suffer from chronic migraines, but these have been way worse than anything I normally have. I have missed work for almost a week now because of this.

I have been rushed around to see doctors to find out what is going on. Nothing is certain yet, but my PCP thinks it may have been caused by some antibiotics I was on mixing poorly with the combo of the five or six meds I take regularly plus the next dosage of testosterone I am on. He things it just threw my body for a massive clusterfuck of a loop and now it's trying to catch up and decompress. He recommended maybe stopping my testosterone but that is absolutely not an option. The antibiotics were for getting rid of an infection I didn't even know I had and I wanted nothing to do with them in the first place. I have a bad reaction to medication as is, but antibiotics are the worst. My body just can't handle them. I should have gone with my gut and not taken them but I trusted the specialist and this is what I get.

Anyway, I will dedicate tomorrow to getting responses out. I am so terribly sorry about all this.
 
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This update is not as bad for once but there is a bit to this.

My posting schedule has been erratic. I apologize, but unfortunately it will stay that way for a while. This doesn't mean I will abandon rps. It just means I won't be around as much as I used to be. There are a few reasons for this.

1. My husband's and I are going through some fina cial troubles as we are looking into getting a house and settling debts and he ended up losing his job in the middle of all of this. My husband is a disabled veteran so it's hard for him to find work that isn't too physically demanding on his body. So in the meantime I have to pick up the slack and have been having to work more as a result.

2. My health this past month has been utter garbage. Part of it was to do with a bad mix of my regular meds and some antibiotics I was forced to take. My body doesn't agree at all with the antibiotics so my health went to shit. On top of that I ended up having a cold and then afterwards I ended up in the hospital for some severe abdominal pain. So that made two total visits to the ER in one month. Not great. On top of that, my mental health has been the most garbage it has ever been.
For thos of you who may not know (I don't mention this too much as I don't feel the need) I am a transgender male. I go through the depression and dysphoria thing on the regular and been fighting with it for years. While I have done some medical transitioning, I have not finished treatments yet. A while ago, I had basically a bad top surgery done. Nothing dramatic and I wouldn't say it was botched, but it wasn't the results I wanted. But at the time I settled for it because I was so desperate. Unfortunately now that issue had become a problem for me and I am fighting to get it fixed. So hopefully soon enough I will be going in for surgery again to correct the issue.
The problem with this is that having surgery means being bedridden and resting for days or even weeks and that has seriously been freakishly me out. That and the fear of this surgery not going right have caused me to have panic attacks on the regular.

3. There has been a lot of strain in the relationships I carry with people ITL as of late. I have decided to dedicate time to the people close to me and this means giving up more of my free time to be with them and give them my undivided attention. I love to rp, but my friends and family mean a lot to me so I need to be around more for them.

4. In leu of all the mess with my physical and mental health, I've decided I need to practice more self care. So sometimes when I'm not giving away my time to others, I am spending my time taking care of myself. Sometimes I just go out for long drives or spend hours at the gym or sit down and play MMOs for hours. So I am not always gonna be up for roleplaying.

There's some other stuff of course, but these few thi ga are the things I feel fine sharing with my partners on here. So if you happen to be waiting on a response from me then don't worry too much. I will get around to it when I have the chance. And likely after the summer, things will calm down again and I will be able to be on more often. But for now I ask that you have patience. I will get around to everyone. I promise. It's just gonna take a while and responses will be slow for some time until things settle.
 
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